Complete Devastation

Assalaamu Alaikum :)

I am devastated. My mother just informed me that Fabricland will be leaving the Bramalea City Center this summer :(

How can this be? Why would they even attempt at doing such a thing?! Argh, I knew I would lose something special once the American's took over the mall. They changed the entire look (which I am only now getting used to) and to my disappointment, one of the few stores I enjoy at the mall, are now being taken away from me *sigh* Where will I buy my broadcloth material from now? Last summer, I visited Fabricland quite a bit because I was being very inventive with my hijabs. Making my own bands to wear underneath and such. Good times, they really were. So since I am off of school now forever *insha'Allah* (I'll discuss that later), I thought I would continue with my work. But everything is leaving me! What am I supposed to do?! Either I stalk up on material now or just get my brother to take me to another location because I certainly am not ready to drive there on my own just yet (I'll discuss that later as well).

Yes, school is over, finally, insha'Allah. I refuse to get all excited and giddy about it until I have received a letter from York affirming that I am "eligible" to graduate! But alhamdulillah, so far so good, I think it might be it this time! I was so depressed during the week of the June convocations because I desperately wanted mine in June too, now, must wait for the October one, eww. Anyhoo, it's such an odd feeling. I really do enjoy attending school and right now, I feel relaxed that I don't have to worry about it anymore. Though I can assure you all, come September, there will be a lot of whiney posts about how much I'm missing school ...

Oh, another thing that's leaving me ... the gym. I have written about how I'm trying to be good and doing my best to stay active and keep the gym as a daily occurance in my life but alas, that may come to an end too. Well, at least in that location. Exclusively Women's is moving from the location I regularily go to and they have teamed up with a bigger location somewhere a little further. There is no way I'm bussing it that far, so my aunt told me about another gym that I can join instead. Better than nothing I suppose.

One of my goals for the summer is to finally go for my driver's license! *gasp* I know, what a shock, I don't even have my G1 yet but I have good reason. I have had traumatic experiences concerning cars/wheels. And when I did decide to be bold and brave, we got into a car accident, eep. Enough is enough, the time has come for me to conquer that one fear and go for it! I just feel sorry for anyone who will be sharing the same road as me though teehehe

Life is keeping me busy. My brother and I have been helping my mother with the gardening which has been quite fun. I'll share the pictures of our roses and flower that have bloomed once again since last summer ... awww! They're so beautiful ... subhana'Allah, I love nature :D


My beautiful Purple Rose!

A Red Rose that looks plastic in this picture

An absolutely stunning picture of our White Rose

One of our many Tiger Lilly's

STRESSED out of my MIND

Assalaamu Alaikum everyone

Why does it feel that when I'm told "my best interest" is being taken into consideration ... isn't really in the end? I'm just so sick and tired of other people making decisions for me which I clearly have no care for at all. When I don't want something ... I really don't want it. Yet the world will look past my thoughts/feelings/opinions and tell me "you don't know what you're talking about".

I have spent most of my life giving in to what other's have wanted, especially when it concerns things that have to do with me specifically. I have come to notice that my opinions don't really matter to anyone and are asked from me just for the sake of asking and knowing.

I'm just stressed out. About everything. Life, school, etc.

Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala is the only One I can turn to for clarity and peace of mind ...

It's best to just disregard this post, if anyone is reading it haha I have my moments where I just need to let things out and my 'sanctuary' just seemed like the best place to do it. And I know so many lovely people read up on what's going on with Squeeky so I know that insha'Allah you will all remember me in your du'as ... I just need a re-fill of Sabr.

Other than all that silliness, I have my (*insha'Allah*) last exam ever tomorrow, please make du'a that I pass and am finally able to graduate! Argh! ............... gonna miss York though :(

Fi-aman'Allah!

Woo Hoo

Assalaamu Alaikum :)

12:30 am

Squeeky is now 23 years old

Alhamdulillah

May this year be much better than the last, insha'Allah

I don't have too much planned for myself but it will be a very lovely and memorable day insha'Allah. I have been looking forward to this day for quite some time and it will definitely be a day to remember :D Also, it is Blinky's 1 year anniversary today too ... aww ...

Just pray that the food I plan to make is edible :S

What have I been upto? Not too much ... my summer course has been keeping me super busy though. But alhamdulillah, I'm really enjoying. So let's just re-cap this past week on my week off from school! (York was closed down due to the Literary Congress that took place)

Weekend (26-28)

It was a lot of fun! My cousin's wife's brother got married that weekend and the wedding was just absolutely beautiful, the bride was stunning, masha'Allah. I guess I was the photographer for most of the evening because my cousin-in-law wanted me to take pictures for her. I didn't mind, I liked being a part of the events but when you're running around in very high heels, can be a bit painful *ouchies* It was also a friend's mehndi that weekend which I attended and it was also nice. Small and intimate. I would say the highlight of the evening would be Saturday, when my cousin and her family finally visited from New Jersey! It's been 4 years since she's been home and boy, things have changed here greatly since she left. I personally saw her last summer but still, I missed her :( I was thrilled to know that her eldest child (of two) remembered who I was. We played playdough together teehehe

Thursday (June 1st)

My friend and I went to Square One for the day for some good shopping! Wow, I really needed that and we always have a great time when we go out haha we're nuts. We also watched X-Men which was a lot of fun because we make such stupid comments during the movie teehehe Afterwards, while waiting for a Mississauga transit (btw, I can't stand those buses, gross!), we were deciding what our abilities would be if we were to be X-Men. My friend is "Sarco" because she would be able to destroy everyone with her sarcastic remarks. As for me, we decided my name would be "Bansshee" haha Don't ask why ... I was screaming in the mall for some reason and she said "stop screaming like a bansshee!" ... So since my screams are ear-piercing, that seemed nice :) We were getting such weird looks from the other people waiting for the bus.

Anyways, I'm too tired to write more ... may Allah Swt bless each and everyone of you :D